Tuesday, 6 November 2012

Catching rays

After pouring my heart out to a beautiful friend yesterday, she sent me this story. It struck a chord and I want to tell you why.

I have been floating above the world for the past year, in a parallel universe of less sleep, exponential learning, daytime TV and utter devotion to one little human.

My life has been breastfeeding, trips to the grocer, primary coloured blocks, mashed veges, yellow rubber duckies, coffee dates and baby kisses full of perfect love. It has been the best year of my life.

But I knew I'd have to come back to earth sometime.

It's not that the baby buzz has gone, it's more that my baby is growing up. He doesn't need the constant feeds and reassuring cuddles anymore, he needs an enthusiastic teacher with energy and the confidence to let him independently explore. It comes with a sudden realisation that I need to take better care of myself so I that can be everything he needs me to be.

It's hard even contemplating being a little bit selfish again. Let's face it, my child's needs are paramount and the days of weekend sleep-ins, long impromptu lunches with friends and solo shopping trips belong to an era of my life I've well and truly moved on from. It's time to pursue other pick-me-ups.

Physically, I've started proper exercise again, I'm cutting out cakes (major step right there), I'm trying to go to bed earlier and I'm painting my nails more often. Mentally, I'm going to work on eradicating the self doubt and fear of judgement that sometimes weighs heavy and Dr Phil has been deleted from my Foxtel IQ list in an attempt to minimise the trash I feed my brain.

I'm going to have more lattes with the beautiful people in my life who uplift and reassure my spirit, and try not to take it upon myself to rescue the rest of the world. I can't be everything to everyone, I just need to be someone to my little one.

I'm ready to reposition myself in the sunlight, and this inspirational article from literary heaven was just the anchor I needed.

Is it sunny where you are?



8 comments:

  1. Great post Mel,
    I loved the article too - I had the very experience over the weekend with two different groups of 'friends'. Couldn't have put it into words but now I can - I'm going to spend more time with the ones who help me feel like I'm standing in the sun! Funnily enough, these are mainly the ones who have their own precious bundles too and can understand that there are more things to life than partying every weekend. Everything in moderation eh!

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    1. Good for you and I completely agree - I appreciate the important things in life so much more now, and the times I get to escape and have a wine (glass not bottle!!) with friends is a real treat. Happy sunbathing! x

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  2. A lovely read latte mum. This article really resonated with me, I am all for the sunshine these days. x

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    1. Thanks for sharing it with me and inspiring this blog post xox

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  3. This is beautiful. Some great steps to minimising emotional junk. It's annoying how some people ask "why would you stay home after the first year?" The second year of life is just as exciting as the first it just stretches us in a different way.

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    1. Thanks so much Karlee - I'm really looking forward to the next year and all of the joys and challenges it will bring. x

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  4. Great post. It's just a new stage, it will just as memorable as the first year, but just different.

    Saying hi from Digital Parents. Off now to click some of your follow options!
    :)

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    1. Thanks Sophie! Hope you've enjoyed looking around. I've just made a coffee and off to explore iSophie too - see you there! x

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