Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Familiar faces, familiar places

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Just when life seems to be rosy, and I'm cosying up on the couch with pink fluffy slippers, a mug of hot chocolate and a roaring fire to keep me warm, I decide to step out into the snow. It's true. I seem to have a habit of wrenching myself out of my comfort zone before I barely have time to get comfortable.

When I finished high school, I travelled against the tide of friends heading south to university, and headed north to a bigger city and new experiences. When I met the man of my dreams, we left our jobs, friends and perfect city apartment for the hustle, bustle and unpredictability of metropolitan Sydney. When we finally became parents and settled down, we uprooted our little family and left everything behind to move back home.

These are just a few examples that spring to mind from the past 30 years, but there are many more. I'm sure to a high-flying adventurous type, this probably sounds like an average week. To me, every experience has been nerve-wracking, slightly terrifying, overwhelming, and, utterly, entirely worth it (risks kinda rock, don't they?!).

But now we're here, living as kiwis in kiwiland, I must say there's a lot to be said for familiarity. For the same accent I hear everywhere and anywhere, for the slower traffic and wider roads, for the chilly mornings and dew on the grass, for EFTPOS-ing it everywhere - even lattes, for lunch dates with my sister, for brunches with old friends, for afternoon teas with even older friends, for homemade dinners with family.

In fact, I thought this last move would be the biggest one of all. The biggest test on my nerves and anxiety levels. The biggest step out of my bubble of comfort that I'd ever experienced. After all, there's so much more at stake now and so much more that can go wrong - the first-home buying, the living with extended family, making new mummy friends, settling into true, proper family life.

Instead, I am more comfortable than I have been in a very long time. I feel grounded, complete, at peace, and so relieved to be back.

I am home, in more ways than one.

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